Friday, April 2, 2010


It's Spring!  New life is blooming in my backyard, and I am welcoming it with open arms.  I am so ready for this season to come - for the colors, the humidity that hangs in the air, the warmth that allows certain babies to go barefoot and sleeveless...

The Daffodils we planted for our angels have made their return.  They are yellow and bright, and during the day they turn their blooms skyward to remind us of our sweet babies.  I took Eliza out yesterday to show her; we sat and I told her about the little souls that came before her and how hard we fought to bring her to us.  And then I looked at her as she smiled up at me and - once again - the wind was knocked out of me and I stopped to stare at my precious girl in complete awe and disbelief that she is here.  I sat there with her in my arms in the very same place where, a year-and-a-half ago, I dug my hands into the dirt as tears spilled from my eyes as I mourned.  I remember digging those holes for the dormant bulbs - one after the other (all 99 of them) - with blurry eyes, thinking I don't want to do this... but I need to.  I hoped, wished, prayed... that one day I would look at them from my kitchen window with our baby in my arms.

Last year, I was 10 weeks pregnant when they bloomed.

And this year, I stood at my kitchen window and looked at those Daffodils with Eliza in my arms.

Oh how I love spring!


Kim D. said...

I think it's so great that you speak so openly about the losses you experienced before finally having Eliza. I love that you keep them alive not just with the daffodils in your backyard but also by telling Eliza about them. You're such an inspiration to me :-D

Alyssa said...

Aw, how lovely! I'm so glad you were able to share that moment with Eliza.

Emmy said...

I was thinking about you and your daffodils the other day, wondering if they'd come back up yet or not.

I'm so glad that you have your precious girl now.

Eliza's Stats

Birth: 8 lbs 5 ozs
Going home: 7 lbs 10 ozs
5 days: 7 lbs 13 ozs
2 months: 12 lbs 6 ozs
4 months: 17 lbs
5 months: 18 lbs 12 ozs
6 months: 20 lbs 13 ozs
9 months: 24 lbs 3 ozs
12 months: 26 lbs 13 ozs
15 months: 28 lbs
18 months: 29 lbs 3 ozs
2 years: 32 lbs
3 years: 34 lbs

Alice's Stats

Birth: 8 lbs 11 oz
2 Months: 13 lbs 10 oz
4 Months: 17 lbs 15 oz
6 Months: 20 lbs 4 oz